The Greatest Elegy

Sometimes it feels great to live. But there are certain moments when I feel like living is worthless, life is full of sorrow and disappointment, it’s like the flow of river. Can you say why a river flows??? May be a river herself doesn’t know the answer. May be it flows because it has to… There is no purpose… It’s just a game which you can only ignore, there is no way you can deny nor can you restrain. Truth is sometimes bitter, but accepting it, I guess, is our destiny.

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There was a time when I used to think I can control myself… more than anyone else. Nothing will change, nothing can change. I used to believe I’m confident, whatever I do. But what an irony!!! It didn’t take much time to change my vision. Now-a-days, sometimes I am the most confused person I’ve ever met. When life is a confusion, it confuses me more. Why we have to make critical choices, why we can’t be at the both side of the river? Why we can’t choose after tasting, rather than after simulating? It’s really tough to take a decision, especially when it can change the way your life will go in future. What if the decision you’ve taken is the greatest mistake of your life, what if it is the beginning of a disaster, rather than the end of a tragedy… What if my life is the greatest elegy of a heart I’ll ever know???

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Being human is the toughest mission, acting human is even tougher. I don’t know when the pain ends… may be it will never end? What is the objective of life? Finding masochistic joy through the bleeding of own heart!!! Or ignoring the heart itself!!! This is getting tougher day by day. Recently I’m finding the second option effective… But will it last… I’m realistic; I know great days don’t stay with someone forever. But what to do then! Is switching between two is what my life is meant to be???

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Those who have known me for years will surely get surprised to see this entry. We know part of a life and ironically we think we know the most… even better than him/her…Ha Ha Ha… Once I said I’m sure about one of my close friends, but I had no idea I’ll be proved completely wrong.

Late Eid Mubarak

At first, I wud like to thank all friends who sent me Eid Mubarak. And late Eid Mubarak to all.

My net connection was down from the day before Eid… In this country, when a vacation starts, everything comes at a halt.

Anyway, I drove a Mitsubushi Pajero last 26th (My 11th motor vehicle). It was fun and I’ve to buy a jeep .

Take Care.

Nobel Achievement

This year Nobel Peace Prize (2006) was awarded to a Bangladeshi person, Dr Muhammad Yunus and an organization, Grameen Bank. It is a remarkable thing for this poverty striken corrupted politician led country. I had no intention to post an entry on this subject. But some SMS’s from friends and posts in groups prompted me to sit for this entry…. again got confused where to post (I’ve so many blogs ).

Some said, at last they (indicating to West) had to recognize us… some other thought after achieving this prize we can do anything… Blah Blah Blah.

Well, Nobel Prize isn’t a recoginition of something… Someone didn’t get Nobel Prize doesn’t mean s/he didn’t do good for Humanity. There is a selection board, there are lots of people and organizations to be considered. At the end, you select one or couple of them. That doesn’t mean others did nothing.

Every nation has its talents, the matter is getting opportunity.

Another thing, very few Bangladeshi do great things. Our education system is such a numb one that it makes us shed all the humanly qualities, creativity, innovation. Besides unfortunately our society does neither respect nor reward the great peoples.

I don’t know much about Bangladeshi born scientists who are doing good job abroad (I know only about my Shejho Mama, Dr Fazlul Huq who was once nominated for Nobel Prize for his Anti-cancer research), but it’s for sure that no Bangladeshi working in Bangladesh is doing Nobel Prize winning science. There is no funding, besides you don’t even get appreciation and inspiration for carrying out research.

May be someday things will change.

Image Courtesy: www.nobelprize.org

Source: http://mahdi-moosa.blogspot.com/

Automatic Transmission

It has been nearly 12 days since my last post. Was little bit busy with different stuffs, besides its the holy month of Ramadan.

Today I drove Kashfia’s car (Toyota Carina), it was my 10th car (theoritically, practically 7th one, 1st one with Automatic Transmission. ) The transmission was Automatic, the most boring type of transmission that Automobile engineers has so far discovered. It reduces the joy of driving dramatically.

There is an art in shifting gears, 1..2…3…4…5… Its like Rythm Divine .

I don’t think I’ll ever buy a car with Automatic transmission. (Unfortunately I might have to, because most of the Audi A- Series come with Automatic Transmission, whatever, I’ll have at least one Manual transmission.)

Anyway, for mechanical engineers Automatic Transmssion is a remarkable feat… and its a blessing for some as well… for those who drive because they have to drive.