1039 BDST
01-11-2009
Time is relative- sometimes I feel I’ve so many examples in my life.
Good moments, they pass by so fast, like a blink of eye! Bad ones, the cling to your life as if they are never meant to leave! What an irony! Why it isn’t the opposite?
Most of the times you will see me happy; not because I pretend to be, it’s because I actually am! Pretending was never in dictionary, I guess that’s a real bad trait. I can get condemned someday for that; that’s a different story though!
When I look back at my life, it’s like a camera reel. I’m a kid playing with my toys, winning all the games I played not because I was great in them, but because I was best at manipulating my playmates! Losing wasn’t in my dictionary either! But I was a good player also. Then I see me growing up, returning to Bangladesh from Kingdom of Saudi Arabia… days in Bangladesh, hard ones… school, college, university. It doesn’t even take a minute to travel a lifespan of 24 years 11 months and 25 days approximately, how weird is that?
What a joke! Ain’t it? Life, feelings, emotions, all the caring stuffs; I mean why do we bother so much about others? Sometimes I think these are the worst dead ends of evolutions. Human beings would do way better without them… so much sorrow and pain around… when I see the lives of my close ones. What’s the point? Every story has a similar match! It’s like the same drama played over and over again! The only difference being the actors, actresses and perhaps the stage!
If you’re trying to make sense of how the writing is proceeding and how it will end, then I suggest stop doing that… you will see a convoluted tunnel with no light… neither any ending. It’s just my mind, moving to and fro, trying to pass through the bad moments.
I’m getting disappointed with my writing… the standard keeps on dropping! Why is that? Is it because I stopped practicing? Or is it because I stopped being hopeless! Yeah, that’s the appropriate term. I wrote on this already in a previous entry!
The strategy of living the moments have changed me so much! Life is fun now; I enjoy every bit of it! Some of my friends keep on criticizing me constantly! I never get their logic! Is it they can’t accept the reality? Or is it they are too jealous of my life.
Wrote nearly a page, attended a phone call in the meantime, only half an hour!!! At least I’ve spent some of the worst moments, sewing meaningless sentences.
Better luck next time!
1115 BDST
01-11-2009
